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Theodore smiled very grandly. “It’s not a task I envy you,” he said.

“I should think not–especially if you knew the import of the will.” He stood with folded arms, regarding me with his cold, detached eyes. I couldn’t stand it. “Come, it’s your property! You are sole legatee. I give it up to you.” And I thrust the paper into his hand.

He received it mechanically; but after a pause, bethinking himself, he unfolded it and cast his eyes over the contents. Then he slowly smoothed it together and held it a moment with a tremulous hand. “You say that Mr. Sloane directed you to destroy it?” he finally inquired.

“I say so.”

“And that you know the contents?”

“Exactly.”

“And that you were about to do what he asked you?”

“On the contrary, I declined.”

Theodore fixed his eyes for a moment on the superscription and then raised them again to my face. “Thank you, Max,” he said. “You have left me a real satisfaction.” He tore the sheet across and threw the bits into the fire. We stood watching them burn. “Now he can make another,” said Theodore.

“Twenty others,” I replied.

“No,” said Theodore, “you will take care of that.”

“You are very bitter,” I said, sharply enough.

“No, I am perfectly indifferent. Farewell.” And he put out his hand.

“Are you going away?”

“Of course I am. Good-by.”

“Good-by, then. But isn’t your departure rather sudden?”

“I ought to have gone three weeks ago–three weeks ago.” I had taken his hand, he pulled it away; his voice was trembling–there were tears in it.

“Is that indifference?” I asked.

“It’s something you will never know!” he cried. “It’s shame! I am not sorry you should see what I feel. It will suggest to you, perhaps, that my heart has never been in this filthy contest. Let me assure you, at any rate, that it hasn’t; that it has had nothing but scorn for the base perversion of my pride and my ambition. I could easily shed tears of joy at their return–the return of the prodigals! Tears of sorrow–sorrow–“

He was unable to go on. He sank into a chair, covering his face with his hands.

“For God’s sake, stick to the joy!” I exclaimed.

He rose to his feet again. “Well,” he said, “it was for your sake that I parted with my self-respect; with your assistance I recover it.”

“How for my sake?”

“For whom but you would I have gone as far as I did? For what other purpose than that of keeping our friendship whole would I have borne you company into this narrow pass? A man whom I cared for less I would long since have parted with. You were needed–you and something you have about you that always takes me so–to bring me to this. You ennobled, exalted, enchanted the struggle. I did value my prospect of coming into Mr. Sloane’s property. I valued it for my poor sister’s sake as well as for my own, so long as it was the natural reward of conscientious service, and not the prize of hypocrisy and cunning. With another man than you I never would have contested such a prize. But you fascinated me, even as my rival. You played with me, deceived me, betrayed me. I held my ground, hoping you would see that what you were doing was not fair. But if you have seen it, it has made no difference with you. For Mr. Sloane, from the moment that, under your magical influence, he revealed his nasty little nature, I had nothing but contempt.”

“And for me now?”

“Don’t ask me. I don’t trust myself.”

“Hate, I suppose.”

“Is that the best you can imagine? Farewell.”

“Is it a serious farewell–farewell forever?”

“How can there be any other?”

“I am sorry this should be your point of view. It’s characteristic. All the more reason then that I should say a word in self-defence. You accuse me of having ‘played with you, deceived you, betrayed you.’ It seems to me that you are quite beside the mark. You say you were such a friend of mine; if so, you ought to be one still. It was not to my fine sentiments you attached yourself, for I never had any or pretended to any. In anything I have done recently, therefore, there has been no inconsistency. I never pretended to take one’s friendships so seriously. I don’t understand the word in the sense you attach to it. I don’t understand the feeling of affection between men. To me it means quite another thing. You give it a meaning of your own; you enjoy the profit of your invention; it’s no more than just that you should pay the penalty. Only it seems to me rather hard that I should pay it.” Theodore remained silent, but he looked quite sick. “Is it still a ‘serious farewell’?” I went on. “It seems a pity. After this clearing up, it appears to me that I shall be on better terms with you. No man can have a deeper appreciation of your excellent parts, a keener enjoyment of your society. I should very much regret the loss of it.”

“Have we, then, all this while understood each other so little?” said Theodore.

“Don’t say ‘we’ and ‘each other.’ I think I have understood you.”

“Very likely. It’s not for my having kept anything back.”

“Well, I do you justice. To me you have always been over-generous. Try now and be just.”

Still he stood silent, with his cold, hard frown; it was plain that, if he was to come back to me, it would be from the other world–if there be one! What he was going to answer I know not. The door opened, and Robert appeared, pale, trembling, his eyes starting in his head.

“I verily believe that poor Mr. Sloane is dead in his bed!” he cried.

There was a moment’s perfect silence. “Amen,” said I. “Yes, old boy, try and be just.” Mr. Sloane had quietly died in my absence.

24th.–Theodore went up to town this morning, having shaken hands with me in silence before he started. Doctor Jones, and Brooks the attorney, have been very officious, and, by their advice, I have telegraphed to a certain Miss Meredith, a maiden lady, by their account the nearest of kin; or, in other words, simply a discarded niece of the defunct. She telegraphs back that she will arrive in person for the funeral. I shall remain till she comes. I have lost a fortune, but have I irretrievably lost a friend? I am sure I can’t say. Yes, I shall wait for Miss Meredith.