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“I even tried to break them with my sword, but did not succeed. As those fruitless attempts irritated me, and as my eyes were by now adjusted to the dim light, I gave up hope of getting more light and went toward the writing-desk.

“I sat down in an arm-chair, folded back the top, and opened the drawer. It was full to the edge. I needed but three packages, which I knew how to distinguish, and I started looking for them.

“I was straining my eyes to decipher the inscriptions, when I thought I heard, or rather felt a rustle behind me. I took no notice, thinking a draft had lifted some curtain. But a minute later, another movement, almost indistinct, sent a disagreeable little shiver over my skin. It was so ridiculous to be moved thus even so slightly, that I would not turn round, being ashamed. I had just discovered the second package I needed, and was on the point of reaching for the third, when a great and sorrowful sigh, close to my shoulder, made me give a mad leap two yards away. In my spring I had turned round, my hand on the hilt of my sword, and surely had I not felt that, I should have fled like a coward.

“A tall woman, dressed in white, was facing me, standing behind the chair in which I had sat a second before.

“Such a shudder ran through me that I almost fell back! Oh, no one who has not felt them can understand those gruesome and ridiculous terrors! The soul melts; your heart seems to stop; your whole body becomes limp as a sponge, and your innermost parts seem collapsing.

“I do not believe in ghosts; and yet I broke down before the hideous fear of the dead; and I suffered, oh, I suffered more in a few minutes, in the irresistible anguish of supernatural dread, than I have suffered in all the rest of my life!

“If she had not spoken, I might have died. But she did speak; she spoke in a soft and plaintive voice which set my nerves vibrating. I could not say that I regained my self-control. No, I was past knowing what I did; but the kind of pride I have in me, as well as a military pride, helped me to maintain, almost in spite of myself, an honorable countenance. I was making a pose, a pose for myself, and for her, for her, whatever she was, woman, or phantom. I realized this later, for at the time of the apparition, I could think of nothing. I was afraid.

“She said:

“‘Oh, you can be of great help to me, monsieur!’

“I tried to answer, but I was unable to utter one word. A vague sound came from my throat.

“She continued:

“‘Will you? You can save me, cure me. I suffer terribly. I always suffer. I suffer, oh, I suffer!’

“And she sat down gently in my chair. She looked at me.

“‘Will you?’

“I nodded my head, being still paralyzed.

“Then she handed me a woman’s comb of tortoise-shell, and murmured:

“‘Comb my hair! Oh, comb my hair! That will cure me. Look at my head–how I suffer! And my hair–how it hurts!’

“Her loose hair, very long, very black, it seemed to me, hung over the back of the chair, touching the floor.

“Why did I do it? Why did I, shivering, accept that comb, and why did I take between my hands her long hair, which left on my skin a ghastly impression of cold, as if I had handled serpents? I do not know.

“That feeling still clings about my fingers, and I shiver when I recall it.

“I combed her, I handled, I know not how, that hair of ice. I bound and unbound it; I plaited it as one plaits a horse’s mane. She sighed, bent her head, seemed happy.

“Suddenly she said, ‘Thank you!’ tore the comb from my hands, and fled through the door which I had noticed was half opened.