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‘Oh yes, if I loved a man…. But I think a woman is silly to allow a man to cheat and fool her to the top of his bent.’

‘What does it matter if she is happy?’

Ethel tossed her head. Then at the end of a long silence she said: ‘Would you care to see the house?’

‘No, thank you, Miss; I must be getting on. Goodbye.’

‘You cannot get back that way, you must return through the pleasure-grounds. I’ll walk with you. A headache kept me at home this afternoon. The others have gone to a tennis-party…. It is a pity I was mistaken. I should like to meet the person my brother goes every day to Branbury to see. I should like to talk with her. My brother has, I’m afraid, persuaded her that we would not receive her. But this is not true; we should only be too glad to receive her. I have heard Father and Mother say so–not to Charles, they dare not speak to him on the subject, but they have to me.’

‘Your brother must have some good reason for keeping his marriage secret. This woman may have a past.’

‘Yes, they say that–but I should not care if I liked her, if I knew her to be a good woman now.’

To better keep the Major’s secret, Mrs Shepherd had given up all friends, all acquaintance. She had not known a woman-friend for years, and the affinities of sex drew her to accept the sympathy with which she was tempted. The reaction of ten years of self-denial surged up within her, and she felt that she must speak, that her secret was being dragged from her. Ethel’s eyes were fixed upon her–in another moment she would have spoken, but at that moment Nellie appeared climbing up the steep bank. ‘Is that your little girl? Oh, what a pretty child!’ Then raising her eyes from the child and looking the mother straight in the face, Ethel said–

‘She is like, she is strangely like, Charles.’

Tears glistened in Mrs Shepherd’s eyes, and then, no longer doubting that Mrs Shepherd would break down and in a flow of tears tell the whole story of her life, Ethel allowed a note of triumph to creep into her voice, and before she could stop herself she said, ‘And that little girl is the heiress of Appleton Park.’

Mrs Shepherd’s face changed expression.

‘You are mistaken, Miss Shepherd,’ she said; ‘but if I ever meet your brother I will tell him that you think my little girl like him.’

Mrs Shepherd pursued her way slowly across the park, her long weary figure showing upon the sunset, her black dress trailing on the crisp grass. Often she was obliged to pause; the emotion and exercise of the day had brought back pain, and her whole body thrilled with it. Since the birth of her child she had lived in pain. But as she leaned against the white gate, and looked back on the beautiful park never to be seen by her again, knowledge of her sacrifice quickened within her–the house and the park, and the manner and speech of the young girl, combined to help her to a full appreciation of all she had surrendered. She regretted nothing. However mean and obscure her life had been, it had contained at least one noble moment. Nellie pursued the dragonflies; Mrs Shepherd followed slowly, feeling like a victor in a great battle. She had not broken her trust; she had kept her promise intact; she would return to London tomorrow or next day, or at the end of the week, whenever the Major wished.

He was waiting for them at the corner of the lane, and Nellie was already telling him all she thought of the house, the woods, the flowers, and the lady who had sat down by Mother on the bench above the river. The Major looked at his wife in doubt and fear; her smile, however, reassured him. Soon after, Nellie fell asleep, and while she dreamed of butterflies and flowers Mrs Shepherd told him what had passed between her and his sister in the beechwood above the river.

‘You see, what I told you was right. Your appearance has been described to them; they suspect something, and will never cease worrying until they have found out everything. I’m not a bit surprised. Ethel always was the more cunning and the more spiteful of the two.’

Mrs Shepherd did not tell him how nearly she had been betrayed into confession. She felt that he would not understand her explanation of the mood in which his sister had caught her. Men understand women so little. To tell him would be merely to destroy his confidence in her. As they drove through the twilight, with Nellie fast asleep between, he spoke of her departure, which he had arranged for the end of the week, and then, putting his arm round her waist, he said: ‘You have always been a good little woman to me.’