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A Difficult Case
by
“To his apathy? To his despair? Emily!” Ewbert dropped his arms from the embrace in which he had folded her woodenly unresponsive frame, and regarded her sadly.
“Oh yes, of course,” she answered, rubbing her handkerchief into her eyes. “But you don’t know that it was despair; and he was quite happy in his apathy; and as it is, you’ve got him on your hands; and if he’s going to come here every night and stay till morning, it will kill you. You know you’re not strong; and you get so excited when you sit up talking. Look how flushed your cheeks are, now, and your eyes–as big! You won’t sleep a wink to-night,–I know you won’t.”
“Oh yes, I shall,” he answered bravely. “I believe I’ve done some good work with poor old Hilbrook; and you mustn’t think he’s tired me. I feel fresher than I did when he came.”
“It’s because you’re excited,” she persisted. “I know you won’t sleep.”
“Yes, I shall. I shall just stay here, and read my nerves down a little. Then I’ll come.”
“Oh yes!” Mrs. Ewbert exulted disconsolately, and she left him to his book. She returned to say: “If you must take anything to make you sleepy, I’ve left some warm milk on the back of the stove. Promise me you won’t take any sulphonal! You know how you feel the next day!”
“No, no, I won’t,” said Ewbert; and he kept his word, with the effect of remaining awake all night. Toward morning he did not know but he had drowsed; he was not aware of losing consciousness, and he started from his drowse with the word “consciousness” in his mind, as he had heard Hilbrook speaking it.
XI.
Throughout the day, under his wife’s watchful eye, he failed of the naps he tried for, and he had to own himself as haggard, when night came again, as the fondest anxiety of a wife could pronounce a husband. He could not think of his talk with old Hilbrook without an anguish of brain exhaustion; and yet he could not help thinking of it. He realized what the misery of mere weakness must be, and the horror of not having the power to rest. He wished to go to bed before the hour when Hilbrook commonly appeared, but this was so early that Ewbert knew he should merely toss about and grow more and more wakeful from his premature effort to sleep. He trembled at every step outside, and at the sound of feet approaching the door on the short brick walk from the gate, he and his wife arrested themselves with their teacups poised in the air. Ewbert was aware of feebly hoping the feet might go away again; but the bell rang, and then he could not meet his wife’s eye.
“If it is that old Mr. Hilbrook,” she said to the maid in transit through the room, “tell him that Mr. Ewbert is not well, but I shall be glad to see him,” and now Ewbert did not dare to protest. His forebodings were verified when he heard Hilbrook asking for him, but though he knew the voice, he detected a difference in the tone that puzzled him.
His wife did not give Hilbrook time to get away, if he had wished, without seeing her; she rose at once and went out to him. Ewbert heard her asking him into the library, and then he heard them in parley there; and presently they came out into the hall again, and went to the front door together. Ewbert’s heart misgave him of something summary on her part, and he did not know what to make of the cheerful parting between them. “Well, I bid you good-evening, ma’am,” he heard old Hilbrook say briskly, and his wife return sweetly, “Good-night, Mr. Hilbrook. You must come soon again.”
“You may put your mind at rest, Clarence,” she said, as she reentered the dining room and met his face of surprise. “He didn’t come to make a call; he just wanted to borrow a book,–Physical Theory of another Life.”