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I saw no signs of Pyrrha. Smugg held on his way across the meadows, down toward the stream; and suddenly the thought leaped to my brain that the poor fool meant to drown himself. But I could hardly believe it. Surely he must merely be taking a desperate lover’s ramble, a last sad visit to the scenes of his silly, irrational infatuation. If I went up to him, I should look a fool, too; so I hung behind, ready to turn upon him if need appeared.

He walked down to the very edge of the stream; it ran deep and fast just here, under a high bank and a row of old willows. Smugg sat down on the bank, wet though the grass was, and clasped his hands over his knees. I crouched down a little way behind him, ready and alert. I am a good swimmer, and I did not doubt my power to pull him out, even if I were not in time to prevent him jumping in. I saw him rise, look over the brink, and sit down again. I almost thought I saw him shiver. And presently, through the stillness of the summer night, came the strangest, saddest sound; catching my ear as it drifted across the meadow. Smugg was sobbing, and his sobs–never loud–rose and fell with the subdued stress of intolerable pain.

Suddenly he leaped up, cried aloud, and flung his hands above his head. I thought he was gone this time; but he stopped, poised, as it seemed, over the water, and I heard him cry, “I can’t, I can’t!” and he sank down all in a heap on the bank, and fell again to sobbing. I hope never to see a man–if you can call Smugg a man–like that again.

He sat where he was, and I where I was, till the moon paled and a distant hint of day discovered us. Then he rose, brushed himself with his hands, and slunk quickly from the bank. Had he looked anywhere but on the ground, he must have seen me; as it was, I only narrowly avoided him, and fell again into my place behind him. All the way back to our garden I followed him. As he passed through the gate, I quickened my pace, overtook him, and laid my hand on his arm. The man’s face gave me what I remember my old nurse used to call “quite a turn.”

“You’re an average idiot, aren’t you?” said I. “Oh, yes; I’ve been squatting in the wet by that infernal river, too. You ought to get three months, by rights.”

He looked at me in a dazed sort of way.

“I daren’t,” he said. “I wanted to, but I daren’t.”

There is really nothing more. We went to the wedding, leaving Smugg in bed; and in the evening we, leaving Smugg still in bed (I told Mary to keep an eye on him), and carrying a dozen of the grocer’s best port, went up to dance at Dill’s farm. Joe was polished till I could almost see myself in his cheek, and Pyrrha looked more charming than ever. She and Joe were to leave us early, to go to Joe’s own house in the village, but I managed to get one dance with her. Indeed, I believe she wanted a word with me.

“Well, all’s well that ends well, isn’t it?” I began. “No more scoldings! Not from Mrs. Dill, anyhow.”

“You can’t let that alone, sir,” said Pyrrha.

I chuckled gently.

“Oh, I’ll never refer to it again,” said I. “This is a fine wedding of yours, Betsy.”

“It’s good of you and the other gentlemen to come, sir.”

“We had to see the last of you,” and I sighed very ostentatiously.

Pyrrha laughed. She did not believe in it, and she knew that I knew she did not, but the little compliment pleased her, all the same.

“Smugg,” I pursued, “is ill in bed. But perhaps he wouldn’t have come, anyhow.”

“If you please, sir—-” Pyrrha began; but she stopped.

“Yes, Betsy? What is it?”

“Would you take a message for me, sir?”

“If it’s a proper one, Betsy, for a married lady to send.”

She laughed a little, and said:

“Oh, it’s no harm, sir. I’m afraid he aint–he’s rather down, sir.”

“Who?”

“Why, that Smugg, sir.”

“Oh, that Smugg! Why, yes; a little down, Betsy, I fear.”

“You might tell him as I bear no malice, sir–as I’m not angry–with him, I mean.”

“Certainly,” said I. “It will probably do him good.”

“He got me into trouble; but there, I can make allowances; and it’s all right now, sir.”

“In fact you forgive him?”

“I think you might tell him so, sir,” said Betsy.

“But,” said I, “are you aware that he was another’s all the time?”

“What, sir?”

“Oh, yes! engaged to be married.”

“Well, I never! Him! What, all the while he—-“

“Precisely.”

“Well, that beats everything. Oh, if I’d known that!”

“I’ll give him your message.”

“No, sir, not now, I thank you. The villain!”

“You are right,” said I. “I think your mother ought to have–scolded him, too.”

“Now you promised, sir—-” but Joe came up, and I escaped.