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For a moment I felt uncomfortable, but after all I was glad not to have the trouble of refusing on my own account.

‘Thanks,’ I said, ‘you did the right thing.’

We walked over to the inn, and sat down at a rude but not unsatisfying table. After dinner, Ireton proposed that we should smoke in the garden. ‘It’s quiet, and we can talk.’ The sun had just set; the sky was magnificent with afterglow. Ireton’s hint about privacy led me to hope that he was going to talk more confidentially than hitherto, and I soon found that I was not mistaken.

‘Do you know,’ he began, calling me by my name, ‘I fancy you have been criticising me–yes, I know you have. You think I made an ass of myself about that affair in the wood. Well, I have no doubt I did. Now that it has turned out pleasantly, I can see and admit that there was nothing to make a fuss about.’

I smiled.

‘Very well. Now, you’re a writer. You like to get at the souls of men. Suppose I show you a bit of mine.’

He had drunk freely of the potent ale, and was now sipping a strong tumbler of hot whisky. Possibly this accounted in some measure for his communicativeness.

‘Up to the age of five-and-twenty I was clerk in a drug warehouse. To this day even the faintest smell of drugs makes my heart sink. If I can help it, I never go into a chemist’s shop. I was getting a pound a week, and I not only lived on it, but kept up a decent appearance. I always had a good suit of clothes for Sundays and holidays–made at a tailor’s in Holborn. Since he disappeared I’ve never been able to find any one who fitted me so well. I paid six-and-six a week for a top bedroom in a street near Gray’s Inn Road. Did you suppose I had gone through the mill?’

I made no answer, and, after looking at me for a moment, Ireton resumed:

‘Those were damned days! It wasn’t the want of good food and good lodgings that troubled me most,–but the feeling that I was everybody’s inferior. There’s no need to tell you how I was brought up; I was led to expect better things, that’s enough. I never got used to being ordered about. When I was told to do this or that, I answered with a silent curse,–and I wonder it didn’t come out sometimes. That’s my nature. If I had been born the son of a duke, I couldn’t have resented a subordinate position more fiercely than I did. And I used to rack my brain with schemes for getting out of it. Many a night I have lain awake for hours, trying to hit on some way of earning my living independently. I planned elaborate forgeries. I read criminal cases in the newspapers to get a hint that I might work upon. Well, that only means that I had exhausted all the honest attempts, and found them all no good. I was in despair, that’s all.’

He finished his whisky and shouted to the landlord, who presently brought him another glass.

‘What’s that bird making the strange noise?’

‘A night-jar, I think.’

‘Nice to be sitting here, isn’t it? I had rather be here than in the swellest London club. Well, I was going to tell you how I got out of that beastly life. You know, I’m really a very quiet fellow. I like simple things; but all my life, till just lately, I never had a chance of enjoying them; of living as I chose. The one thing I can’t stand is to feel that I am looked down upon. That makes a madman of me.’

He drank, and struck a match to relight his pipe.

‘One Saturday afternoon I went to an exhibition in Coventry Street. The pictures were for sale, and admission was free. I have always been fond of water-colours; at that time it was one of my ambitions to possess a really good bit of landscape in water-colour but, of course, I knew that the prices were beyond me. Well, I walked through the gallery, and there was one thing that caught my fancy; I kept going back to it again and again. It was a bit of sea-coast by Ewart Merry,–do you know him? He died years ago; his pictures fetch a fairly good price now. As I was looking at it, the fellow who managed the show came up with a man and woman to talk about another picture near me; he tried his hardest to persuade them to buy, but they wouldn’t, and I dare say it disturbed his temper. Seeing him stand there alone, I stepped up to him, and asked the price of the water-colour. He just gave a look at me, and said, “Too much money for you.”