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I thought of trying to set down a similar list of self-congratulations for myself. Alas, the only two I could think of were having remembered a telephone number, the memorandum of which I had lost; and having persuaded a publisher to issue a novel which was a great success. (Not written by me, let me add.)

I found my friend Kenko a rather disturbing companion. His condemnation of our busy, racketing life is so damned conclusive! Having recently added to my family, I was distressed by his section “Against Leaving Any Descendants.” He seems to be devoid of the sentiment of ancestor worship and sacredness of family continuity which we have been taught to associate with the Oriental. And yet there is always a current of suspicion in one’s mind that he is not really revealing his inmost heart. When a bachelor in his late fifties tells us how glad he is never to have had a son, we begin to taste sour grapes.

I went out about six o’clock, and was thrilled by a shaving of shining new moon in the cold blue winter sky–“the sky with its terribly cold clear moon, which none care to watch, is simply heart-breaking,” says Kenko. As I walked up Broadway I turned back for another look at the moon, and found it hidden by the vast bulk of a hotel. Kenko would have had some caustic remark for that. I went into the Milwaukee Lunch for supper. They had just baked some of their delicious fresh bran muffins, still hot from the oven. I had two of them, sliced and buttered, with a pot of tea. Kenko lay on the table, and the red-headed philosopher who runs the lunchroom spotted him. I have always noticed that “plain men” are vastly curious about books. They seem to suspect that there is some occult power in them, some mystery that they would like to grasp. My friend, who has the bearing of a prizefighter, but the heart of an amiable child, came over and picked up the book. He sat down at the table with me and looked at it. I was a little doubtful how to explain matters, for I felt that it was the kind of book he would not be likely to care for. He began spelling it out loud, rather laboriously–

Section 1. Well! Being born into this world
there are, I suppose, many aims which we may
strive to attain.

To my surprise he showed the greatest enthusiasm. So much so that I ordered another pair of bran muffins, which I did not really want, so that he might have more time for reading Kenko.

“Who was this fellow?” he asked.

“He was a Jap,” I said, “lived a long time ago. He was mighty thick with the Emperor, and after the Emperor died he went to live by himself in the country, and became a priest, and wrote down his thoughts.”

“I see,” said my friend. “Just put down whatever came into his head, eh?”

“That’s it. All his ideas about the queer things a fellow runs into in life, you know, little bits of philosophy.”

I was a little afraid of using that word “philosophy,” but I couldn’t think of anything else to say. It struck my friend very pleasantly.

“That’s it,” he said, “philosophy. Just as you say, now, he went off by himself and put things down the way they come to him. Philosophy. Sure. Say, that’s a good kind of book. I like that kind of thing. I have a lot of books at home, you know. I get home about nine o’clock, and I most always read a bit before I go to bed.”

How I yearned to know what books they were, but it seemed rude to question him.

He dipped into Kenko again, and I wondered whether courtesy demanded that I should order another pot of tea.

“Say, would you like to do me a favor?”

“Sure thing,” I said.

“When you get through with that book, pass it over, will you? That’s the kind of thing I’ve been wanting. Just some little thoughts, you know, something short. I’ve got a lot of books at home.”

His big florid face gleamed with friendly earnestness.

“Sure thing,” I said. “Just as soon as I’ve finished it you shall have it.” I wanted to ask whether he would reciprocate by lending me one of his own books, which would give me some clue to his tastes; but again I felt obscurely that he would not understand my curiosity.

As I went out he called to me again from where he stood by the shining coffee boiler. “Don’t forget, will you?” he said. “When you’re through, just pass it over.”

I promised faithfully, and tomorrow evening I shall take the book in to him. I honestly hope he’ll enjoy it. I walked up the bright wintry street, and wondered what Kenko would have said to the endless flow of taxicabs, the elevators and subways, the telephones, and telegraph offices, the newsstands and especially the plate-glass windows of florists. He would have had some urbane, cynical and delightfully disillusioning remarks to offer. And, as Mr. Weaver so shrewdly says, how he would enjoy “The Way of All Flesh!”

I came back to Hallbedroom street, and set down these few meditations. There is much more I would like to say, but the partitions in hall bedrooms are thin, and the lady in the next room thumps on the wall if I keep the typewriter going after ten o’clock.