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“It began all at once, you see. I mean the worst of it did. Of course, we’d had sharp words, as all people who live together are apt to have, I suppose, but they didn’t last long. You see, everything was mine, and he had nothing at all when he came home with me. He’d had bad luck, and he–he never was a good business man.”

The tears were on her face again. She was retrospectively approaching that miserable time when her suffering began. The droop of her head appealed to the young man with immense power. He had an impulse to take her in his arms and comfort her, as if she were his sister.

She mastered herself at last, and went on in low, hesitating voice, more touching than downright sobbing: “One day, the same summer the mill burned, one of the horses kicked at little Morty, and I said I’d sell it, and he said it was all nonsense; the horse wasn’t to blame. And I told him I wouldn’t have a horse around that would kick. And when he said I shouldn’t sell it, I said a dreadful thing. I knew it would cut him, but I said it. I said: ‘The horse is mine; the farm is mine; I can do what I please with my own, for all of you.'”

She fell silent here, and Morris was forced to ask, “What did he do then?”

“He looked at me, a queer, long look that made me shiver, and then he walked off, and he never spoke to me again directly for six months. And from that day he almost never speaks to me except through the children. He calls me names through them. He cuts me every time he can. He does everything he can to hurt me. He never dresses up, and he wears his hat in the house at all times, and rolls up his sleeves at the table, just because he knows it makes me suffer. Sometimes I think he is crazy, and yet—-“

“Oh, no, he ain’t crazy. He’s devilish,” Morris blurted out. “Great guns! I’d like to lay my hands on him.”

She seemed to feel that a complete statement was demanded. “I can’t invite anybody to the house, for there’s no knowing what he’ll do. He may stay in the fields all day and never come in at all, or he may come in and curse and swear at me or do something–I never can tell what he is goin’ to do.”

“Haven’t you any relatives here?” Morris asked.

“Yes, but I’m ashamed to let them know about it, because they all said I’d repent; and then he’s my husband, and he’s the father of my children.”

“A mighty poor excuse of one I call him,” said the young man with decision.

“I tried to give him the farm, when I found it was going to make trouble, but he wouldn’t take it then. He won’t listen to me at all. He keeps throwing it up to me that he’s earning his living, and if I don’t think he is he will go any minute. He works in the field, but that’s all. He won’t advise with me at all. He says it’s none of his business. He won’t do a thing around the house or garden. I tried to get him to oversee the mill for me, but, after our trouble, he refused to do anything about it. I hired a man to run it, but it didn’t pay that way, and then it was idle for a while, and at last it got afire some way and burned up–tramps, I suppose.

“Oh, dear!” she sighed, rising, “I don’t see how it’s going to end; it must end some time. Sometimes it seems as if I couldn’t stand it another day, and then I think of my duty as a mother and wife, and I think perhaps God intended this to be my cross.”