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“It’s raining–I s’ll be all right–I s’ll be going in a minute.”

“I’ve got to see as the stacks is safe. Take your wet things off.”

“Are you coming back?” she asked.

“I mightn’t, not till morning.”

“Well, I s’ll be gone in ten minutes, then. I’ve no rights to be here, an’ I s’ll not let anybody be turned out for me.”

“You won’t be turning me out.”

“Whether or no, I shan’t stop.”

“Well, shall you if I come back?” he asked. She did not answer.

He went. In a few moments, she blew the light out. The rain was falling steadily, and the night was a black gulf. All was intensely still. Geoffrey listened everywhere: no sound save the rain. He stood between the stacks, but only heard the trickle of water, and the light swish of rain. Everything was lost in blackness. He imagined death was like that, many things dissolved in silence and darkness, blotted out, but existing. In the dense blackness he felt himself almost extinguished. He was afraid he might not find things the same. Almost frantically, he stumbled, feeling his way, till his hand touched the wet metal. He had been looking for a gleam of light.

“Did you blow the lamp out?” he asked, fearful lest the silence should answer him.

“Yes,” she answered humbly. He was glad to hear her voice. Groping into the pitch-dark shed, he knocked against the box, part of whose cover served as table. There was a clatter and a fall.

“That’s the lamp, an’ the knife, an’ the cup,” he said. He struck a match.

“Th’ cup’s not broke.” He put it into the box.

“But th’ oil’s spilled out o’ th’ lamp. It always was a rotten old thing.” He hastily blew out his match, which was burning his fingers. Then he struck another light.

“You don’t want a lamp, you know you don’t, and I s’ll be going directly, so you come an’ lie down an’ get your night’s rest. I’m not taking any of your place.”

He looked at her by the light of another match. She was a queer little bundle, all brown, with gaudy border folding in and out, and her little face peering at him. As the match went out she saw him beginning to smile.

“I can sit right at this end,” she said.”You lie down.”

He came and sat on the hay, at some distance from her. After a spell of silence:

“Is he really your husband?” he asked.

“He is!” she answered grimly.

“Hm!” Then there was silence again.

After a while: “Are you warm now?”

“Why do you bother yourself?”

“I don’t bother myself–do you follow him because you like him?” He put it very timidly. He wanted to know.

“I don’t–I wish he was dead,” this with bitter contempt. Then doggedly; “But he’s my husband.”

He gave a short laugh.

“By Gad!” he said.

Again, after a while: “Have you been married long?”

“Four years.”

“Four years–why, how old are you?”

“Twenty-three.”

“Are you turned twenty-three?”

“Last May.”

“Then you’re four month older than me.” He mused over it. They were only two voices in the pitch-black night. It was eerie silence again.

“And do you just tramp about?” he asked.

“He reckons he’s looking for a job. But he doesn’t like work in any shape or form. He was a stableman when I married him, at Greenhalgh’s, the horse-dealers, at Chesterfield, where I was housemaid. He left that job when the baby was only two month, and I’ve been badgered about from pillar to post ever sin’. They say a rolling stone gathers no moss …”

“An’ where’s the baby?”

“It died when it was ten month old.”

Now the silence was clinched between them. It was quite a long time before Geoffrey ventured to say sympathetically: “You haven’t much to look forward to.”

“I’ve wished many a score time when I’ve started shiverin’ an’ shakin’ at nights, as I was taken bad for death. But we’re not that handy at dying.”

He was silent.”But what ever shall you do?” he faltered.

“I s’ll find him, if I drop by th’ road.”

“Why?” he asked, wondering, looking her way, though he saw nothing but solid darkness.

“Because I shall. He’s not going to have it all his own road.”

“But why don’t you leave him?”

“Because he’s not goin’ to have it all his own road.”

She sounded very determined, even vindictive. He sat in wonder, feeling uneasy, and vaguely miserable on her behalf. She sat extraordinarily still. She seemed like a voice only, a presence.