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The night fell and he could see from his window the moon shining over the clump of trees about Monnickendam church–he could stand it no longer. He put on his hat and walked across country; the three miles were endless; the church and the trees seemed to grow no nearer, and at last, when he thought himself close, he found he had a bay to walk round, and it appeared further away than ever.

He came to the mouth of the canal along which he and Valentia had so often walked. He looked about, but he could see no one. His heart beat as he approached the little bridge, but Valentia was not there. Of course she would not come out alone. He ran to the hotel and asked for her. They told him she was not in. He walked through the town; not a soul was to be seen. He came to the church; he walked round, and then–right at the edge of the trees–he saw a figure sitting on a bench.

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She was dressed in the same flowered dress which she had worn when he likened her to a Dresden shepherdess; she was looking towards Volendam.

He went up to her silently. She sprang up with a little shriek.

‘Ferdinand!’

‘Oh, Valentia, I cannot help it. I could not remain away any longer. I could do nothing but think of you all day, all night. If you knew how I loved you! Oh, Valentia, have pity on me! I cannot be your friend. It’s all nonsense about friendship; I hate it. I can only love you. I love you with all my heart and soul, Valentia.’

She was frightened.

‘Oh! how can you stand there so coldly and watch my agony? Don’t you see? How can you be so cold?’

‘I am not cold, Ferdinand,’ she said, trembling. ‘Do you think I have been happy while you were away?’

‘Valentia!’

‘I thought of you, too, Ferdinand, all day, all night. And I longed for you to come back. I did not know till you went that–I loved you.’

‘Oh, Valentia!’

He took her in his arms and pressed her passionately to him.

‘No, for God’s sake!’

She tore herself away. But again he took her in his arms, and this time he kissed her on the mouth. She tried to turn her face away.

‘I shall kill myself, Ferdinand!’

‘What do you mean?’

‘In those long hours that I sat here looking towards you, I felt I loved you–I loved you as passionately as you said you loved me. But if you came back, and–anything happened–I swore that I would throw myself in the canal.’

He looked at her.

‘I could not–live afterwards,’ she said hoarsely. ‘It would be too horrible. I should be–oh, I can’t think of it!’

He took her in his arms again and kissed her.

‘Have mercy on me!’ she cried.

‘You love me, Valentia.’

‘Oh, it is nothing to you. Afterwards you will be just the same as before. Why cannot men love peacefully like women? I should be so happy to remain always as we are now, and never change. I tell you I shall kill myself.’

‘I will do as you do, Valentia.’

‘You?’

‘If anything happens, Valentia,’ he said gravely, ‘we will go down to the canal together.’

She was horrified at the idea; but it fascinated her.

‘I should like to die in your arms,’ she said.

For the second time he bent down and took her hands and kissed them. Then she went alone into the silent church, and prayed.

VII

They went home. Ferdinand was so pleased to be at the hotel again, near her. His bed seemed so comfortable; he was so happy, and he slept, dreaming of Valentia.

The following night they went for their walk, arm in arm; and they came to the canal. From the bridge they looked at the water. It was very dark; they could not hear it flow. No stars were reflected in it, and the trees by its side made the depth seem endless. Valentia shuddered. Perhaps in a little while their bodies would be lying deep down in the water. And they would be in one another’s arms, and they would never be separated. Oh, what a price it was to pay! She looked tearfully at Ferdinand, but he was looking down at the darkness beneath them, and he was intensely grave.